daddy....

hi everyone...
it's been so long I haven't written...
well, this time, I created this story because I was inspired by my friend
my buddy when I was in high school till now...
his name is... just call him Steve...
this is the story about a father, I bet you guys got a daddy right?
even there're people who didn't know his daddy till now
but whoever he is, he's your daddy after all
here's the story.... dedicated to Stephan Susanto...

Daddy

In a small town called Pone lived a small family, well average maybe, contain of a daddy named Stone a.k.a Black Cat, a mother named Sofie, and this family got 4 sons....

The oldest son named Peter, the second son named Steve, the third one named Hans and the youngest named Nick...

Mr. Stone worked as a wood dealer, he collected woods from the forest and sold it to the town, while Ms. Sofie open a little toy shop. Peter is a strong and handsome guy, he's a hard worker, he's helping his daddy's work. But Steve, he's not a normal guy, he's so thin and he couldn't speak because he's dumb. The rest of the sons still little kids, but they helped they mother running the shop.

Although Steve was dumb, he always tried his best to help his daddy or his mom. He's a smart boy, he loved the nature and sometimes he wrote a poem about his homeland and his family. Everyday Steve helped his father in the morning to collected the firewood, meanwhile Peter went to the forest and chop down some big trees.

Sometimes because of his dumbness Steve often made mistakes, but, his daddy never got mad at him. All the family member loved Steve a lot, and Steve also loved his family.

One day, it was Steve 19 birthday, Sofie didn't open the shop to prepared a feast for Steve... Stone carved a fine wood into a horse model as a present for him, Peter bought him a warm jacket for him, and his two younger brother prepared a song for him.

Steve was so happy, and he's so amazed with his daddy's present...

the day after his birthday, Steve asked his daddy how to carve wood... His daddy taught him everything he knew...

Steve learned so fast, he had passed his daddy's skill now....

One day, Stone got cough, he couldn't stop coughing, then he went to a clinic....

the doctor gave him a cough syrup, after that his dad drank it
His body get better, but might be because of his body was so weak and couldn't resist the dosage of that drugs...
He died the next morning...
Steve was so sad...
He's so sorry because he was never be able to show his carving to his daddy...
at the night when his daddy died... Steve wrote a poem for his daddy...
The poem was :

Dear daddy...
Daddy... How are you today?
that's the question I want to asked you everyday...
I'm sorry I can't...
I never thought that I'll lose you this soon...
I haven't made you proud yet..
I wish we could carve the woods like we used to do
there're a lot of things I wanna show you without words

It breaks my heart to see the strongest man I knew..
Lying there numbly without any words...
I wish I could see your smile again...
like how we used to laugh while we were collecting the firewood..
Dad... I'm sorry..
I knew, I'm not a perfect son for you...
I'm dumb, and I often did the wrong things and made you disappointed
Dad... please come back...
I really fell so lonely...
is a boy really not suppose to cry?
but I really want to cry now...

I still remembered the day we pass together...
when you used to teach me how to live this life
I still remembered the years we went through...
through all the laughters and tears....
I still remembered the day when you sing
sing for me everynight before I went to sleep...
I still be able to feel it....
now... I really wanna read this poem I wrote you...
but I just can't....

thank you Dad.... for being an inspiration for me...
for being... the best daddy everyone could possibly ever got....
I.... I love you dad.....

with love Steve....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UqfLVDIZcP8

Father....

this is a real story
about somebody's life
well, just call her Dessy
entitled .... Father

Father

23 years ago, in a cold city named Bandung, was borned a girl, then his father gave her a name. Her name was Dessy. Dessy was raised in an authoritative way, that made her personality to be dissidents and rebels. She often against her parent, and everyday she had to undergo a life full of pressure. As a daughter, Dessy hated her father more than anything, even she ever thought "one day if I could be a successful person, I'd dump my father far away from my life" and the worst she ever wished that her father would die quickly. so she could be freed from her suffering. Days went by, and the more she hated her father, all the things bout loving parent was bullshit to her, she didn't even care what her teacher said about parent's love, and child dedication. Her heart had been frozen like ice, and it couldn't be melted.

Till one day, she was challenged by priest, to knee three times in front of her parent. If her parent didn't love her, then they wouldn't give a damn to what she did, and the priest would confess that he's wrong to Dessy. Then she went home in a rush to prove that she was right. But what happened? The man she hate the most, he shed a tear in front of her... She asked herself, why did he cry? he must be laughing because I was lost by kneeing in front of him... why?

After that, Dessy started to behave better, she stopped lying and swearing to her father. She started to learn how to love her father and started to read some books of child dedication. But there is something that she never understood, the word "Dharma" in the book she red. (Dharma means the teachings of truth in Buddism).

Then she joined a Buddhist foundation, and she changed. Her stubborn personality began to fade. She regretted her deeds and her negative thought all this time, her frozen heart started to melt little by little...

One day she joined a camping from the Buddhist foundation. She was asked to write a love letter to her parent, content of her apologize to her parent for all she did. But she hid it in her drawer because she was too shy. But she promised herself that she would gave it to her parent at the right time. 

In one evening, Dessy saw her father was so tired from working, then Dessy approached her and gave him a head massage. The next day, Dessy was planning to read the letter she wrote and tell about her feeling to her parent. But she didn't know why, she felt kinda worry that day. Her father went to work, but... He never came back... because he went forever... Dessy got the message, that her father was passed away by a traffic accident. This shocked Dessy and she would never be able to read her letter to her father....

She was so sorry, and she wanted to say sorry to her father... but it was too late...

The big guy who scared her, now had gone.. In a flash she'd never see his smile anymore...

End....

 
 a sad story? yup, just say so...

by reading the story I can say that we should do what we can do now

don't waste your chance, you just got one life...

don't waste it....

don't too carried away by the things you had lost....  because you still have someone who love you now...

by the things in the past you had done wrong... let it be an experience for you

just move on, there are lot of things waiting for you...