do it for her!!! : )

I don't know why... everytime I try to forget something... I just can't simply do it...
it always come back...

well... I've got my own story...
a life's experiences...
it was a nice November day... 14th November 2008...
the sun wasn't too hot and the breeze was nice...

like always... I woke up and realized that it was a nice moment to start my day with a smile...

I prepared myself and went to school... this was the day I fell in love with someone...
a little shorty... cutie and... fierce lady..

I started the school by spending time with my buddies...

I didn't know why... it just came like something I never expected...
when I saw her face... I felt so peaceful...

well, she never realized though

after school... I sent her some messages...

it went well, she replied...

till one thing I told her... that I like her... she thought it was just a game... but it wasn't..

well, it was one day of my life I felt so in love...

I kept goin on with her.... well, at first she didn't like me at all...

time went by... we started to love each other...

we did a lot of things through 1,5 years...

I wondered does she still remember them? or everything was just gone to hell for her?

who knows... heaven knows....

we bet on things that are funny, like who wakes up earlier will receive a gift from the looser...

I won most of the game and I won a lot of stuff... fried rice, strawberry juice... chocolates...

well, she won too, she won my heart....

we shared our life every night before we went to sleep...

we talked bout pigs and cows... and Japanese summer festivals... 

fireworks, beach... and everything we could talk bout...

on her 17th birthday... I wrote a song for her... 

my friends helped me sang it for her... that day...

well... it was the best time of my life...

but everything was gone... till got stressed out from this university jokes 

I started to be bored... didn't care bout her and... 

I sent her away... I couldn't be so patient that time...

and it was the biggest mistake I've ever made... just for now...

never thought that things would turn out this way....

I never realized how happy she had made me... the happiest person in this world?

I don't know...

I feel like a fool because I've let her down...

made her shed her tears... made her mad because I posted her photo in a social website and acted so stupid...

I wish she could hear my heart scream that I still love her...

I'd hold her hand when she scared....

I missed every night we shared... the cows and the pigs we talked bout...

missed every moaning she told me... and I missed when she sang to me a song she loved to sing....

the night seems so colder now for me...

the last thing she told me... "can we just be friend?" and "yeah it's true now, that I got no feeling bout you anymore"....

is it goodbye?

there's so many words in this world... why must goodbye?

I think... I'll do what she wanted...

although it hurts me bad... well... do it for her : )

A song with nice lyrics for me right now... enjoy...