loneliness...

when you lonely... feel sad... you'll remember someone who'll always there with you
accompany you, cheer you up...
but when he's there with you... you ignore him

"human... just realized how precious someone for them, when that someone's gone..."

well, I suddenly remembered a story... bout a bird and a rose..

"once upon a time, there's a white rose and a bird
one day, the bird fly across a lake
he took a rest at a flower garden
he saw a beautiful white rose there
then, the bird proposed the rose to become his wife
but, the rose rejected him...
but, the bird never gave up..
everyday he came back to the rose, and brought various things
sang a song for her, but just the same
the rose still rejected him...
but he never gave up
one day, the rose got bored and pissed with the bird' proposed
then, on that day, when the bird came and proposed her
she said "When I turn to a red rose I'll accept your love!!!"
the bird thought bout it... everyone knew it
that a white rose will never turn into a red rose
then the bird came out with an idea
he cut his own wing and spread his blood on the rose
then, the rose painted bloody red....
then the bird died...
suddenly the rose realized, that the bird loved her
more than anyone else
but, everything's too late.. the bird had gone
and would never return to her anymore..."

and, when I hear that quotes... it inspired me to create this poem...

in a lonely place, here I sit alone...
pretending that I'm strong...
try to resist my pain...
remember bout someone I've just lost...

her smile... her eyes...
everything... just a fading memory now....
now... my eyes are empty... cold...
soulless.... without her presence around me...
staring at a photograph, I took when I was with her..

I've drowned so deep
swallowed by the endless pain...
waiting for a sign of change, that will never show...
waiting for someone who'll never arrive..


a thousand regrets in front of my eyes..
as the regrets inside my heart..
stay and won't move away...
should I run away from reality??
I've tried to hide in the dark...
but your smile.... always there....

I'm sorry... cause I've ignored you
when you smiled at me for the first time....
I'm sorry... cause I've wasted your love...
please forgive me.... and come back to me...