Mother's day......

Another story... it's late but... it's never too late...
I made this Indonesian version, because I've created this story long time ago...


Apakah kamu punya seorang "Ibu"? Kurasa ya, karena setiap manusia dilahirkan oleh ibunya. Pernahkah kalian memikirkan perjuangannya selama 9 bulan mengandung kalian? Pantang makan yang enak-enak, tidak boleh  bergerak dengan bebas, membawa beban lebih di dalam perut mereka? Renungkanlah setelah membaca cerita ini 


Hari ini tanggal 18 Desember, lagi-lagi hal yang sama terjadi di rumah Jack Wilson, seorang anak baru gede berusia 18 tahun. Pagi-pagi buta begini dia sudah bertengkar dengan ibunya, Jean Steiner. Jack memang tidak pernah akur dengan ibunya setelah kepergian ayahnya. Ayah Jack sudah meninggal ketika dia berumur 8 tahun dengan meninggalkan warisan yang sangat banyak untuk Jack dan Jean. Mereka sedang beradu mulut tentang kelompok yang diikuti Jack belakangan ini, menurut kabar burung, kelompok tersebut melakukan hal-hal yang tidak seharusnya dilakukan oleh anak seumuran mereka, seperti mengkonsumsi narkoba dan seks bebas. Jean selalu melarang Jack mengikuti kegiatan kelompok tersebut, tetapi Jack tetap keras kepala, "kalau aku ga ikut nanti teman-teman bilang aku ga keren ma!!!!" kata Jack dengan keras sambil membanting kursi tempat mereka duduk di ruang makan "iya nak, tapi geng itu berbahaya, dan mama ga mau kamu kenapa-kenapa" balas ibu Jack dengan nada lembut, "Brisik!! Terserah aku dong mau ngapain juga, aku pergi" bantah Jack dan langsung meninggalkan rumahnya dan ibunya yang sambil memanggil-manggil namanya tetapi Jack tidak peduli dan langsung pergi dengan mobilnya. Jean tidak bisa melakukan apa-apa, selain menangis dan berdoa agar anaknya itu baik-baik saja. 


Keesokan harinya adalah hari ulang tahun Jack, walaupun setiap hari Jack selalu tidak sopan kepada Jean dan selalu menyakiti hati Jean, tetapi Jean tetap mengingat hari itu. Hari itu setelah Jack pergi ke sekolah, Jean langsung pergi belanja, membeli segala hal yang diperlukan untuk pesta kejutan Jack. Sekitar jam 6 sore, Jack pulang, "TEEEET!!!!" suara terompet yang ditiup ibunya dan beberapa pelayan rumah "selamat ulang tahun nak", para pelayan segera mengeluarkan makanan dan kue-kue yang telah dibuat oleh Jean selama seharian. Tapi apa reaksi Jack, dia tidak peduli dengan semua itu dan berkata "ADuh!!, apaan sih brisik banget aku baru pulang juga udah diganggu, capek tahu" Jack langsung masuk ke kamarnya, ibunya membujuknya agar mau merayakan pestanya itu, tetapi karena sudah ada janji pertemuan kelompok Jack menolak dan langsung pergi lagi. Betapa sakitnya hati Jean karena perlakuan anaknya itu, tetapi dia hanya tersenyum dengan air mata di pipinya dan berkata "hati-hati di jalan ya nak, selamat ulang tahun ya", Jack tidak menggubris ibunya itu dan langsung pergi ke tempat perjanjian. Malam itu, geng Jack mengalami perkelahian dengan geng lain dari kota seberang, dan Jack terluka parah karena perkelahian itu dan segera dibawa ke rumah sakit oleh teman-temannya, tentu saja teman Jack juga segera menghubungi Jean. Setelah mendengar kabar itu, Jean segera menyalakan mesin mobilnya dan tancap gas ke rumah sakit tempat Jack dirawat. Jean menjaga Jack sampai keesokan paginya dia sadar. "Ngapain mama di sini? Udah mama pulang aja, Jack ga butuh mama kok" kata Jack ketika sadar bahwa ibunya ada di sebelahnya sambil menggengam tangannya. "Jack, mama khawatir sekali sama kamu, tapi untunglah kamu sudah sadar. Gimana keadaanmu Jack?" kata ibunya dengan wajah yang cukup gembira karena anaknya sudah siuman. "Gimana keadaanku, yah mama kan bisa lihat sendiri!!" teriak Jack sambil mengerang kesakitan. Walaupun kelakuan Jack seperti itu, ibunya tidak pernah membenci Jack, dia tetap menjaga Jack dan merawatnya sampai dia sembuh dengan tulus dan penuh kasih sayang, melihat itu hal itu, Jack mulai sadar, betapa ibunya menyayanginya. 


Hari ini tanggal 21 Desember, dan besok Jack sudah boleh pulang ke rumahnya, dan besok juga adalah hari ibu. Jack berencana menyatakan rasa terima kasihnya kepada ibunya pada hari itu. Tetapi apa yang terjadi? Jean mengalami kecelakaan lalu lintas ketika ingin membelikan makanan untuk Jack. Dia tertabrak Truk Container yang supirnya mabuk ketika sedang menyeberang jalan. Jack mulai gelisah, Ibunya tidak kunjung kembali setelah 2 jam, dia langsung menelepon ke Hp Jean, berharap ibunya yang mengangkat, tetapi yang didengarnya adalah suara lelaki yang memberitahukan bahwa Jean mengalami kecelakaan lalu lintas. Jack langsung meninggalkan ruang rawatnya dan pergi ke tempat dimana Jean terbaring, "Mama, mama, mama" kata Jack sambil menggenggam tangan ibunya yang halus itu. "Ya nak..." jawab Jean dengan suara yang hampir hilang, "Mama ga apa-apa kan?" tanya Jean, "iya nak, mama baik-baik saja kok" sambil tersenyum, "Ma, maaf ya.. selama ini Jack selalu bikin mama sedih, dan selalu ngerepotin mama." sahut Jack 
"......" tidak ada jawaban dari ibunya yang terdengar hanyalah suara sirine keras dari alat pengukur detak jantung. "Ma.. MAMA... MAMA!!! jangan diam dong ma, jangan pergi dulu ma, Jack sayang banget sama mama, Jack masih butuh mama..." tetapi Jean hanya diam hanya senyuman hangat yang menghiasi wajahnya... 


Keesokan harinya, Jean dimakamkan, Jack hanya bisa menangis dan menyesali segala perbuatan yang pernah dilakukannya. Tahun-tahun berlalu, beberapa tahun kemudian Jack menjadi seorang pria yang sukses, menjadi seorang presiden direktur dari sebuah perusahaan, yaitu perusahaan "I Love Mom corporation". Perusahaan yang menyediakan jasa perbaikan hubungan anak dan ibu mereka. Lebih tepatnya perusahaan ini memperkerjakan para psikiater sebgai sarana konsultasi bagi para ibu dan anak-anak yang dulunya seperti Jack. Hari ini tanggal 22 Desember, tepatnya hari ibu, Jack berdiri di depan kuburan ibunya, membawakan seikat bunga mawar kesukaan ibunya dan meletakkan di atas kuburan ibunya itu. "Ma terima kasih ya, atas pengorbanan mama selama ini buat Jack, mulai mengandung Jack sampai membesarkan Jack... Maaf ma, karena Jack terlambat mengatakan ini, maaf karena Jack ga pernah bikin mama senang, dan Jack ga pernah merayakan hari ulang tahun mama, ataupun hari ibu bersama mama". Sambil tersenyum dan meneteskan air mata, teringat kembali kenangan masa keci Jack, "Ma, Jack sayang banget sama mama" kata Jack kecil sambil tersenyum kepada ibunya, "Iya Jack, mama juga sayang banget sama Jack" jawab ibunya sambil mengajarkan lagu kasih ibu kepada Jack. Tetapi semua sudah terlambat, yang bisa Jack lakukan di hari ibu ini, hanyalah berdoa untuk mamanya di surga dan tersenyum untuk ibunya.... 


Teman-teman terkasih, pikirkanlah sekarang, bagaimana ibu kita menyayangi kita. Mungkin terkadang dia memang cerewet, dan kita selalu menganggap dia tidak sayang sama kita, cuma memikirkan dirinya sendiri, atau tidak peduli dengan kita. Tetapi teman-teman, di dalam hatinya dia hanya takut, takut tidak bisa lagi melihat kita tersenyum dan ketawa bahagia. Dia sangat khawatir dengan kita sehingga kalau kita pulang agak telat dia memarahi kita, ataupun menghukum kita. Waktunya sudah tidak lama lagi. pejamkanlah mata kalian dan ingatlah kembali ketika dia menyuapi kita, memandikan kita, bahkan sampai mau membersihkan bokong kita setelah kita buang air, ingatlah kembali sewaktu dia mencium kita, memeluk dan menggendong kita, ingatlah saat kita berkata "Ma, aku sayang mama" yang sekarang sudah hampir tidak pernah kita ucapkan kepadanya. Bayangkanlah ketika dia mengajarimu berjalan, ketika dia tersenyum saat mendengar kata pertama yang kamu ucapkan, dan bayangkanlah seolah-olah kamu kembali ke masa kecil itu, peluklah dia, ciumlah dia, dan katakan kepadanya "Aku sayang mama, selamat hari ibu ma". Lakukanlah itu sekarang!! Mungkin kalian berpikir, "AH, kan masih ada lain kali"? Ya, apakah ada lain kali? Bagaimana kalau hari ini adalah hari terakhirmu melihatnya? Peluklah dia, ciumlah dia, dan katakan kepadanya "Aku sayang mama, selamat hari ibu ma" sebelum kalian menyadari bahwa tidak ada lagi lain kali itu. 


Dedikasi untuk hari Ibu 
By Febrian Zoldix

home....

I've got this inspiration from my friend's friend



she escaped from her house... just because of one simple reason...
she fought with her mother and got away from home...
this is a story... maybe you ever heard it somewhere...
but... I create this myself, and adopted a little from that story..

"why do we have to throw garbage in the trash can?
just imagine that you're a garbage...
if someone threw you on the street, you never know who you are
or what you are... you're nothing... you're floating out of nowhere...
but, when you're in the trash can, you know that you're a garbage..
although you're so dirty and everyone sees you so low...
and it makes you feel so low, lower than the floor...
at least you know who you are.. and what you are
no matter what's your social degree... or how rich you are...
you still know yourself..."

in that quotes... you pick your own moral value, but...
this is my version... the garbage is someone, and the trash can is your family...
it doesn't matter how poor you are, how weak you are...
when you're in your family... you're someone...
well at least you know who you are....
and for me....family is the most important thing...
here's the story... entitled home..

HOME

Long ago there's a family, they're rich and they lived in a mansion... They got everything they wanted, except something... They never got a child, it's been 3 years after they married, but the wife had never been pregnant...

One day, the husband got so frustrated because he always wanted a son... So they decided to adopt a son... They named their son Prince... Prince lived in the mansion, and his adoptive parent loved him so much...

But he never had a life of a normal kid, he was not allowed to go outside the mansion to play with another kids, it's because his parent didn't want Prince to know that he wasn't their real son... He had a loyal dog named Steven, he played with his dog everyday, he felt so lonely... 

It was September 19th, it's Prince birthday, that year he turned to 16... his parent asked him, what did he want for his birthday present... and as the same every year he always asked for something... it's his freedom, he wanted to go outside the mansion, but his daddy got mad on him... The thing he always wanted, but he never got it...

Prince was so sad, but it didn't last long... "why I can't go outside, why my daddy always forbid me" he thought... then, tired of waiting for several years... he tried to find a way out..

Then that day, he escaped by climbing the wall while the guard was careless. He was so happy and ran into everywhere he could... He never been outside the mansion before, so he asked everyone he met about everything strange to him....

Then he arrived in a corner of a street, he met an old guy there... That gramps knew him, and called his name... Prince was wondering, why did that old man know his name.... so he asked that old man... Unbelievable that old man knew everything bout Prince, he told Prince that he wasn't his adoptive parent's real son....

Prince didn't believe it, but the old man story seems like so real to him, and that's the reason why he wasn't allowed to go out... In a rush he ran to the mansion and asked his dad bout his true address... His dad couldn't lie to him anymore, the secret he kept for 16 years it's uncovered... Prince's father told him the truth...

Prince was mad, he was upset... he really wanted to know who was his real parent...

But his adoptive father didn't know where they were now...

Prince was so mad to his father, they fought... His adoptive father slapped him and his cheek... and punished him in his room...

Although his adoptive father was so hard on him, but he loved Prince so much...

Prince was so mad, he really wanted to find his real parent... then he thought of something... He wanted to go on a journey to find his real parent and his real home...

In the middle of that night, Prince escaped once again with the same way... he brought some food supply and his loyal dog with him... He left a message to his adoptive father said "I'm out to find my home daddy... don't worry bout me I'll be alright... thanks for caring me, see you later... your adoptive son... Prince" 

Outside he asked everyone about his real parent, but no one knew...

suddenly he remembered the old man he met in the street corner, he went there and find that old man once again... Prince asked him bout his real parent.... the old man told him, to go to the west past through the forest... But in that forest there were a lot of scary beasts... but it didn't make Prince scared, he kept going...

Day by day, turned to months... Prince still couldn't find his real parent... several months later, Prince has traveled every inch of that small country... but he still couldn't find a clue....

"That old guy had lied to me" he thought... Prince became very angry and went back to the street corner where he found that old guy... but... that street corner was empty... no one was there... even since he was 10 there wasn't somebody there... it was a scary place and no one wanted to go there... that what everyone said bout that place...

Prince was shocked... who's that old guy he saw before he left the city? ghost or something? He was confused... he felt so dizzy... then he walked and kept walking... till he arrived in front of a big door...

he recognized that door... it was new year's eve that day... he came back to his old home, his adoptive father's mansion... it's wall was so dirty, the paint was peeled... it looked like an old house now...

he felt so afraid to come back... after what he did, he was afraid that his adoptive father would mad at him...

But, boldly he entered the house and found his adoptive father.... When his adoptive father looked at him... he ran to him... the son said that he was sorry but... his adoptive father smacked him so hard...

After his adoptive father smacked him.... he smiled at Prince and hugged him... when his adoptive father hugged him, he felt a warmness he never felt before...

that day.. although Prince couldn't find his real home or parent.... he wasn't upset...

they celebrate new year together.. and..... Prince had just realized... that he was home...

dear readers... wherever you are... and whoever you got....

friends, best friends or family.... wherever you celebrate new year... and with whom you celebrate it...

don't be sad... because... whenever and wherever you feel good...

there's your home....

for whoever who can't go back to their home town, or family's house....

just be happy... because whoever you got now.... is your family...
a little too late but... Happy New Year All!!!

Jackie Legg's...

when is Christmas???

well... this is a tale about a place and a time..
a time for Christmas... this tale happened a long long ago...
maybe you can say it never happen actually
before that let's answer some questions first..
first, what is Christmas? you can answer it yourself...
me myself, think it's the day when Jesus was borned...
so here's the story... but before that... a little late maybe, but just merry Christmas dear readers
what the title of this story? it remains unknown....

        Long ago in a faraway land...called the Shivers Village
Lived a small family consist of 3 people, they were daddy named Skeeter, mother named Annabelle, a three years old son named Jack and a dog named Franklin.
They're poor.. but although they're poor, they're happy, why? because they loved each other. Every morning, dad woke up and did his job. he's a firewood collector, he collected firewood and them to the market in town for rice. While mother was doing her job taking care the household and the son. how bout the dog? it hunted some animal in the forest for the meal too.

        A small and poor happy family. They always celebrated Christmas together every year. They did what normal family did for their Christmas. Like changing present, greeting each other and anything. And guess, Christmas was coming at that time. It's one week before Christmas, daddy started to save some money to buy some present for his family. That was the first time for Jack to celebrate his very first Christmas. He even didn't know what Christmas was. then, curiously he asked his mother, "Mom, what is Christmas?"....
"well son, Christmas is the day when we celebrate the birthday of our savior Jesus Christ", the mother reply. "Then... when does this guy Jesus was borned?", innocently he asked his mommy once again. Annabelle told her "He's our mighty savior, He's the son of God, and he'll always be here in your heart." the mother reply again.

       But Jack still curious, then he went to his father and asked him the same question. "Daddy, what is Christmas?".... "um. Christmas is a day when we're happy, a day when love is everywhere, and a day when we exchange present with our family and friends, because it's the day when our savior Jesus borned to this world", the father said.
he heard the same name, Jesus the savior. Jack got so excited bout this Christmas stuff. present, feast, and anything.

Then Jack tried to find some present that he could give to anyone at home with his beloved dog. He got no idea where to find this present. He went through the forest, he found a garden full of beautiful flower, he stopped and picked some, he thought "this is for my mommy". One down two more to go, he kept walking, then he arrived at a farm, he saw an old guy and a pile of straw. Suddenly, he thought of an idea, "hey, I can make this stray a warm bed for Frank" then he asked the old guy for the straw. The old man, gave him the straw because it had no use for him anymore. The last gift, it's for his daddy, he kept walking and found something shiny under a tree, it's a gold bar!!! He brought it all home and wait for kept it, he couldn't wait for Christmas to come. One day before Christmas, it was late at night, but the father still not returned to home. Everyone worried, and started lookin for Skeeter, and they found him collapsed under a pile of snow when he tried to reach the firewood.

        They brought Skeeter to a clinic, unfortunately, he's not okay and he's still unconscious. That year was the first year they didn't celebrate Christmas eve, they spent their time in the clinic. Of course everyone was very sad, especially Jack, his very first Christmas was nothing, and his father was dying. Everyone prayed for Skeeter's recovery, Jack  prayed to Jesus, he said "Jesus, if you're really a savior, please save my daddy, because I love him so much and I'd like to tell him Merry Christmas". Two days later, Skeeter woke up... it's a miracle a man near his dead woke up...., and everyone's so happy. The first thing that Jack did was, told his father "Merry Christmas Daddy..." and gave him the present he kept. He gave his mother and his dog their present also. That night they celebrate their Christmas in the clinic and they felt so happy...

....The End...

A simple story right? boring? maybe, but what do you got from that story? that matters most....

so when is Christmas? you can answer that question your own. Do you think that they celebrate their Christmas a little bit late?

well, you all have your own reason and answer right? 

but... for me, it's never too late to celebrate Christmas...

what's Christmas once again? the day when Jesus was borned, it's not what happen 2000 years ago at December 25th in a sheep barn

let me ask you one more thing, when was Jesus borned?

I think it's not what happened 2000 years ago

it's when a cry turn into a smile

a hatred turn into love

a death turn into life
it's when miracle happen

it's when you believe that Jesus is in your heart...

just to be like that.... Jesus is borned... inside your heart...

everytime that happen... it's Christmas right?

Merry Christmas Everyone

GBU=God Bless Us

lonely christmas? if it's with you... it'll be alright

christmas huh?
it comes and goes away just like that
well, there's a wish I always wish in every christmas I've ever had
I just want to spend this christmas eve...
just you and me, it doesn't matter if it will be lonely tonight
if it's with you... I'll be fine...
but honestly this is my wish..... I wrote everything here...
just wishing that you'll read and realize this someday...
life's really a box of chocolate... you never know what will you get
but, you can always wish you'll get the sweetest chocolate
the best chocolate.... well, human will never stop wishing till they're dead
for the lady who's the sweetest chocolate in my box
Jackie Legg's

"winter snow start to fall
children's laughter all around
lights are turning on in hundred colours
seems like in wonder land

sitting here, by the fire we lite
then we prayed...
to be honest... to be here with you...
feels like a fairytale come true
although this year almost end...
but I'm glad that we're here now...

looking at every christmas tree in this town
a lot of gifts below... I really wanted them all...

but it doesn't matter anymore
I really thanked God.. that you're the most pretty gift I got this christmas

watching you smile...
I'd give everything just to make this time stand still
merry christmas everyone
may your days be merry and bright
as bright as the light in everyone's eyes tonight"

when does human die??

when does human die? 
is it when he is hit by a bullet? 
when his body can no longer move?
or when he suffers a deadly disease?
when his heart stops beating?
or when he ate a soup made out of a poisonous mushroom?

when he can no longer breathe? No!
I don't think so... human dies...
when he can't dream anymore..
when he can't love anymore...
and when he's forgotten...
when they started to lose everyone
his best friends, family, even when he lost himself...
maybe time can take his body away...
but his spirit, and dreams will surely come true...
because... he'll always live on everybody's heart...
that's what makes this life beautiful
isn't this life beautiful?

loneliness...

when you lonely... feel sad... you'll remember someone who'll always there with you
accompany you, cheer you up...
but when he's there with you... you ignore him

"human... just realized how precious someone for them, when that someone's gone..."

well, I suddenly remembered a story... bout a bird and a rose..

"once upon a time, there's a white rose and a bird
one day, the bird fly across a lake
he took a rest at a flower garden
he saw a beautiful white rose there
then, the bird proposed the rose to become his wife
but, the rose rejected him...
but, the bird never gave up..
everyday he came back to the rose, and brought various things
sang a song for her, but just the same
the rose still rejected him...
but he never gave up
one day, the rose got bored and pissed with the bird' proposed
then, on that day, when the bird came and proposed her
she said "When I turn to a red rose I'll accept your love!!!"
the bird thought bout it... everyone knew it
that a white rose will never turn into a red rose
then the bird came out with an idea
he cut his own wing and spread his blood on the rose
then, the rose painted bloody red....
then the bird died...
suddenly the rose realized, that the bird loved her
more than anyone else
but, everything's too late.. the bird had gone
and would never return to her anymore..."

and, when I hear that quotes... it inspired me to create this poem...

in a lonely place, here I sit alone...
pretending that I'm strong...
try to resist my pain...
remember bout someone I've just lost...

her smile... her eyes...
everything... just a fading memory now....
now... my eyes are empty... cold...
soulless.... without her presence around me...
staring at a photograph, I took when I was with her..

I've drowned so deep
swallowed by the endless pain...
waiting for a sign of change, that will never show...
waiting for someone who'll never arrive..


a thousand regrets in front of my eyes..
as the regrets inside my heart..
stay and won't move away...
should I run away from reality??
I've tried to hide in the dark...
but your smile.... always there....

I'm sorry... cause I've ignored you
when you smiled at me for the first time....
I'm sorry... cause I've wasted your love...
please forgive me.... and come back to me...

A song I've ever made for someone... I got some help for the music from my friend
I don't know why, I remembered it now.... this is the sound, my friends sister sang it : )

well, check the lyrics out :

"for all the time
I've been going through
I never felt like this before
feel this warm
I thought I'm slowly falling in love with you

from the moment since we talked
I have known that you are the one
take a look at my eyes
there's no one except you my girl

thank you girl
for being my eyes when I couldn't see
for being my hope when I couldn't wish
being my everything

everytime I see you smile
I feel better eventhough I'm sick
when you're near
I'm ready to face anything

thank you girl
for teaching the way to love
for being a little piece of light
for guiding me back to where I belong
you're the place I lay all my wish

and if I wish for you
do you wanna make my wish come true
girl now I just wanna share my laughter and tears with you...
would you mind to be my girl..."